now i want to know if he has a tumblr or any other kind of blog and if he ever blogs about me. or you know, if he just ever thinks about me in general. i still don’t know what was on that second cd but i really want to know.
so i’m not done with my article yet but there’s a boy sleeping in my bed…we’re pulling an all-nighter even though i a) have absolutely no reason to and b) if i don’t start sleeping soon i’m gonna go batshit and die because i haven’t been sleeping lately. he’s taking a nap now while i write my article (or go on tumblr) and then we’re switching. except for the go on tumblr part.
for the record: my mental state is normal. i just need sleep. i am not going crazy, i am not thinking suicidal thoughts. my sleep schedule is out of whack and people drive me crazy. that does not make me a head case. that does not mean you should check me into a psych ward or ask me if i’m ok twenty times a day, especially if you don’t even talk to me. my march depression came and went. the panic attacks…they still happen a decent amount, more than i would like them to. besides that, i’m fine. stressed, tired, confused, but fine.
we hung out earlier. we went to dunks and the supermarket to get foodstuffs and he came back here and we chilled. we watched how i met your mother and then he started showing me his friends from back home and his exes. AND he burned me anotehrr cd.
is this normal friend behavior?
it’s taken me like three tries to spell all of this. i’m sorry!@
Well by the sound of it he did come over, so I would call this a success.
he came over after i told him i was playing the secret life of the american teenager drinking game. actually, he was on his way over already, since he got to my place like two minutes later and he was across campus. we just watched grey’s and then he fell asleep for like ten minutes and then we went for a walk.
as a disclaimer: i don’t like drinking by myself. i never do it, actually. but it was midnight and my friends were all falling asleep and i was still wired so i googled the secret life drinking game, since i’ve always wanted to play it. i picked the season two premiere. i went from being a little over mildly buzzed to wasted in less than two minutes. this is a bad game. it is dangerous. play with caution.
Adventures! Adventures with the mysterious him and alcohol! No, no no no: Adventures that involve eating cap’n crunch in alcohol with him. IT WILL BE GLORIOUS.
my friends all went to sleep so i’m trying to convince him that coming over to see his sad, lonely friend drinking by herself adn watching dawson’s creek is a good idea. i don’t want anything to really happen tonight but i haven’t seen him in a while and i miss chilling with him.
the depression’s still here. i don’t know when it’s gonna back down but i’ve basically been mainlining cap’n crunch and cadbury mini eggs to keep me sane. i’ve been through half a box of cereal in the last two days. i’ve been eating it by the handful.
i’m on the second season of dawson’s creek. i don’t know what drew me to this show at this particular stage of my life, but maybe the universe is trying to show me something.
i’ve lost three followers since i last posted. one was the blog that made me snap, the marriage one. so i’m sorry if i scared you off.
i haven’t decided what i’m doing this weekend yet. i’m either gonna hang out with him and drink or go on adventures or i’m gonna stay in with the cap’n and dawson. i think the last time i hung out with him was tuesday. we went back and forth between all of my cds but we spent a good chunk of time on the message one.
You’re pure awesomesauce with extra BAMF flavoring and a slight hint of… I dunno, groovy. Seeing as it seems to be an annual thing, chances are that you’ll get through it. Just remember that your followers love you.
…i honestly don’t know what to say. i’m legitimately speechless right now. you’ll get a real response tomorrow but…thank you. really. it means a lot.
so my very single self is lying in bed, inhaling cap’n crunch for dinner since the cap’n is my boyfriend, when all of a sudden i get a new follower. it’s a blog about marriage and weddings and THE PERFECT DRESS and shit like that.
i’m sorry, is there anything about my blog that makes it seem like i’m getting married anytime soon? do i seem at all desirable to men right now, after inhaling boxes and boxes of cereal and cookies for the last six months? fuck this.
in other news, my march depression has officially kicked in and i already hit the worst of it. god only knows how long it’ll last. i thought i was getting off easy this year since it hadn’t kicked in yet but all i’ve wanted to do for the last couple of days was cry.
Yes, and I’m hating myself right now because I took this course purely because I thought it would be ‘interesting’. Ugh.
i’ve taken a bunch of classes so far that i though were going to be interesting…nope. i’m a mass comm major and i’ve taken three classes so far that have basically taken all of the good things about film and sucked the soul from each of them. ugh. hate it.
World Religions. The problem is, this course is so different from the usual science courses I take. It’s hard for me to break this stuff down in to individual facts that I could just memorize. It’s taking sooooo long to absorb the info on each pg
i haaaaaaaaaaaaatttttteeeeeeee books like that…i’m taking a class called 20th Century and the book is impossible to get through. it should be easier to take notes but everything is so crammed in, it’s tough. i just got off break and i didn’t have any work due tomorrow so this is my night off from textbooks. otherwise i would probably be reading the same sentence in my broadcast performance book over.and.over again. it’s stupid to have broadcast performance books. or most mass communications books. most, not all.
Yes, I have a question.
If I eat my text book right now, will all of its dense, complex knowledge be absorbed in to my brain and saved in my memory?
I'm thinking the answer is yes, but I thought I should get a second opinion on this before taking my first bite.
see, if the answer was yes, that would solve all of school’s problems and studying wouldn’t take up entire lives and people wouldn’t go insane. however, i’m pretty sure all of the dense, complex knowledge will just miss your head and go straight for the digestive system. i wish you could eat textbooks and get the knowledge though. life would be so much easier.
O_O an earthquake just hit india, and one was supposed…
i’m from new york. i’ve been nervous about all this stuff but i’m from half an hour outside the city, right on the long island sound. i demand evidence of this. i can’t afford to freak out more than i have to.
i like you already, dawson. i think you can be my new SHOW. since i clearly need another SHOW, since i have grey’s, the office, private practice, glee, raising hope, how i met your mother, pretty little liars, 90210, one tree hill and i feel like i’m forgetting one.
watching pretty little liars and how i met your mother. or rather, letting them load since my wireless isn’t working and i’m stuck using the really slow internet on my crappy, half-broken ethernet cord. yeah, that’s right. wired internet. so now i’m watching dawson’s creek. i got dawson’s creek, oz, house and lady and the tramp at the library tonight. i’m looking at a fun evening.
as for the guy…work in progress. we hung out till pretty late last night and again tonight and we’ve been listening to all of the cds in my car, but mostly the message one. we got matching deathly hallows posters last night at walmart and he was watching me go through clothes trying to figure out what to wear out this weekend and provided some suggestions.